I'm overdue for giving an adoption update! Pssst, if you follow me on Twitter, you will see our updates there much more quickly!
Last week we decided to pack up and go to Dallas. Our house had another leak and our builder decided to rip all the fittings out and have them replaced, which they did while we were gone.
I had submitted our profile to another birthmom (our 5th). We found out Friday that she didn't select us. So far the feedback is because we have biological kids. Meanwhile, our attorney called and wanted me to talk with a birthmom that he has been working with. I don't want to go into the conversation but I will say that it was quite an experience. That was one of the hardest conversations I've ever had...and I get her questions and everything, but it was still hard. She knew before talking to us that she didn't want to work with us because we had children.
So, in 7 months that is 6 moms who have either turned us down or decided to parent. I'd be lying if I said it wasn't hard. It is hard. But I'm so glad to have my husband and kids - they make every day a blessing. I'm grateful to my Twitter friends to, and all of you who are praying for us.
I was telling my friends on Twitter that each No brings us closer to our Yes. I really believe that. I believe that God has a plan for us and we are committed to submitting to His will even when it's hard.
When we went through infertility, I didn't submit. I tried to control everything and force it to go my way. Clearly, that doesn't work! In our case, it wasn't until I gave up my fight, and handed my worries and burdens over to God that we got pregnant. I promised myself that I wouldn't try to control this situation. I'm going to trust in Him to lead and guide us.
Proverbs 3: 5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him and He will make your paths straight."